Running

Good Monday to you.  I have a cup of pumpkin spice coffee keeping me company as I type and a damp, cool day outside my window.  I already went for my run this morning.  Gotta start running on a more regular basis because we are doing a 5K in a few weeks.  I want to feel more than capable when the race rolls around.  This morning I felt like I was going to puke.  I blame the too many layers of clothes that I was wearing, due to the damp, cool day.  I overestimated the amount of insulation that I needed.

While I was running, I was thinking.  I was thinking about how much I don't like running.  How I dread getting up in the morning to run and how I make up many an excuse to not do it.  But how, once I'm actually out there, it is really not that bad.  How I'm always glad I did it.  And how it is so much easier to run when I am not focusing on running.  If I'm thinking about what I plan on getting done with my day or if I'm running lines for an audition or if I'm just really into the song that comes up on my iPod, suddenly my run will be coming to an end and I think, That was easy.

And then I started thinking about how lately I've been putting all of my thoughts into acting.  What more can I be doing?   Who should I be meeting with?  How can I make the most out of the rest of the year?  And I'm starting to feel a bit nutty.  Not unlike when I'm running and I start thinking, Gosh, I still have another mile to go and I'm already feeling winded...maybe I could just walk it.  I have yet to give into that thought - I keep running.  I just force myself to think about something else.  So how can I feel less nutty when it comes to acting?  I think it is time to start thinking about something else.  I have been itchin' to write lately.  I'm having a fun get together with my girlfriends this week.  I am going to start trusting more that the balls that I already threw into the ring throughout the year are still being tossed around.  "Hollywood Time," baby.  I know it is tickin'.