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Sorry for the late post....I ended up sleeping in a little today and then I had a commercial audition that I had to get ready for before I headed to work, so I ran out of writing time this morning. Don't worry - I took yesterday off as I had hoped. Oddly enough, I felt like I had been hit by a truck - like I was getting sick. I've been going pretty hard and I really needed yesterday to recharge. But now I'm feeling ready to take on the world again. I got to play a young mom in the commercial audition today and I had two little girls. It was fun to play with them. Callbacks are next week, so we shall see. Also there is this low-budget film that is casting and I love the premise of it. I really hope I get seen for it. I looked up the casting director and his office is right near where I live....debating whether I should do an old-fashioned drop off. I know my reps have probably already submitted me but there is always the good chance of getting lost in the mix of submissions. I haven't dropped off my headshot at casting offices since moving out here though. Do people still do that? Do casting directors hate it? Any thoughts?

Once in a while

I really wish I had more to share but I've been sitting here and staring at this blank-blog-screen for awhile now, contemplating what to write about. And I've come up empty. But there will be days like this. More often than not, while I'm still waiting and searching and hoping for opportunity and prepartion to meet, there are quiet days. And most of these days I try to be productive, whether it is with class or writing or painting - being creative in some way - or it's with meeting casting directors and networking and following up with people I've met - the business side of things. But right now...I just feel like taking a break. Not worrying about scrambling and trying to make something happen. But an actual break where I try not to think too much about the goals I'm striving to meet and instead I just take a hike, do some errands, relax with a glass of wine and some good conversation. It's good to have that every once in a while. Today is my once in a while.

Quiet

It is slow slow slow and I don't have much to catch you up on. I'm working on getting my reel together and I thought I would be able to get it done on my own....but I don't think I have the right program on my computer. And for some reason my computer has decided to stop playing dvds. It doesn't recognize what they are. So that is a problem. My poor computer is going senile. Other than that, since it is quiet in the acting world, it might be a bit quiet on here.

In other news...I loved loved loved the LOST series finale. Can't stop thinking about it.

Short

Happy Friday :) Not much to report so this blog will be short.

.....I just paused up there for a good 30 seconds after I typed the word "short" and still couldn't think of anything to add. I considered leaving the blog at that. But now these sentences are here. The end.

Have a great weekend!

Antsy

Some days I sit down to write and I am at a loss...I have no idea what to write about today. I audited a class last night and it is was unlike any class I've ever seen. And the idea of taking it made me nervous. Which is why I think I should take it. I think I need to find the most unfamiliar thing and go with it. I need some growing pains. It was the first stop on my round of class hunting, so I'll see what sticks in the end.

.....other than that....not too much to report. Earlier this year, I did a casting workshop where someone asked, "When is the best time to schedule a vacation? Because every time I do, it seems like I get an audition. What are the slow times of the year?" This CD answered that May or the beginning of June were good times to sneak away. Most shows are on their hiatuses, CDs are taking a break and things are a little slower. I feel that. I feel like things are slowing down. And I'm trying my best to welcome the respite. But I always feel a little antsy.

I'm going exploring....

I decided to take some time off from class at the Chubbuck studio and I'm going to see what else is out there. I have loved learning the Chubbuck technique and feel like I've grown so much in the two years I've been at the studio. But I'm also feeling pretty comfortable. And that is never good when it comes to acting. So I'm going to shake things up a bit and see what else is out there. I'm auditing a class tonight where the teacher teaches "her version of Meisner" and I'm really looking forward to checking it out. And then Monday I have an interview with another teacher that comes highly recommended as well. There is one more that I'm considering checking out but I have a little time. I'm still working on a scene at my current studio and that should be wrapped up by the beginning of June. I might take a few weeks before starting up elsewhere and then I'll dive in to learning something new. I think I have an amazing foundation having worked with Ivana and I'm interested to see how I can build on it.

The corner

So....no phone calls yesterday. Guess I didn't get a callback. If you don't know me, then what I'm about to say may sound like I'm being a brat...but I'm really surprised when I don't get a callback. If you do know me, what I just said makes sense to you. Because I truly believe that you have to have confidence in your ability in this business - otherwise, what's the point? You get rejected constantly and if you don't think you have what it takes to make it happen, then this path is nothing but heartache. Maybe that is why I'm still striving after all this time, after all the disappointments. Somewhere inside me, I'm confident that this career will happen. And while it has, to a degree, "happened" - I am very lucky to have booked steadily - I always feel like there is something more consistent, more promising rightaroundthecorner....if I could only get around that corner. I guess that is why they call it a dream. Because sometimes I feel like I'm trapped inside a dream where I can't run fast enough or scream loudly enough or just reach that corner to peek around it - every time I get close to the corner, somehow there is more sidewalk and the distance grows again. But I still keep trying to reach it.

Oh, Monday

Oh Monday....why are you so gray and hard to get used to? I think it is because I had such a good weekend. We celebrated birthdays with friends with some BBQ and bowling. We treated ourselves to some spa treatments - I got a facial and my skin looks lovely. M. came over and we dabbled in Scrabble. Overall a fun, relaxing and much appreciated weekend. And now the week starts again...

The commercial audition on Friday went well...we'll find out how well in the next day or two. The callbacks are today and tomorrow so fingers crossed I hear something. Other than that, not too much on ye ol' agenda today. Just the usual waiting-by-the-phone routine. I need to catch up on two more House episodes - I've been a little behind this season. But tonight is the season finale and my friend Angel is going to be on, so I need to get up to speed. He plays a paramedic so keep your eyes peeled if you watch the show. He and I were in class together and now he's part of the House Crew, too.

100

Golly good gracious....this is my 100th blog post on this blog. I'm kind of proud for sticking with it. And glad - sometimes I read back over these from months past and I'm think, "Oh yeah! I totally forgot about that..." Memories...

Anyway, back to today. I'm still trying to get back into the swing of blogging everyday, after laying low for a week or so. Things continue to happen though so I need to stay on it. ABC made the official announcement yesterday of who they cast in the role of Bianca on All My Children. Yep, that was the role I was up for (I know I was a little vague before). They cast Christina, who is a true sweetheart and I am very happy for her. They made a good choice and hopefully they will keep me in mind for future roles I may be right for.

Got to see True Love last night at the screening Al Lewis, our director, put together for those of us who worked on the film. It came out really good. I'm really proud of it and I have a feeling it will find its way into a few festivals. The quality is great, the four leads are great (ahem, if I do say so myself) and it is funny. Funny sells. I am excited to see where this short takes us!

As for the agenda today, I have an audition for a commercial and then I am taking it easy. This weekend I have a marathon of birthday parties to go to and my husband and I are talking about treating ourselves to professional massages. I could go for that.

So close

Where to begin??? It's been awhile since I wrote because something was in the works and I didn't want to jinx or jeopardize anything. Remember about a month ago when I went out for the contract role on a big soap? Well....turns out they liked me. And they wanted to screen test me for the role. And it was pretty exciting. With soaps, you sign your contract before the test so there isn't much I can really divulge. But the actual test was a lot of fun! They put you in hair and makeup, pick out your wardrobe, and it is like you have the job for the day. Well, you and the several other girls they test. Overall, I felt really good about how the day went and am proud that I got that far....but, in the end, I didn't get the part. The other girls who tested were all so nice and talented so I am excited to see who they offered the role to (there will be an official announcement from ABC). Whoever they picked got a life-changing call yesterday. It wasn't time for my life to change just yet. I was pretty bummed yesterday but today is a new day and this is just fuel to the fire. Getting so close just reinforces that I'm on the right path. You know who else auditioned for this same soap back in the day and didn't get the role? Julia Roberts. Everything happens for a reason, my friends...

In the weeks that I was preparing for my test, I did go on a few other auditions. I was called in for Entourage again, which was exciting. And I had a callback this week for a commercial. Not sure if they put anyone on avail yet but it would be a really fun spot to shoot, so fingers crossed.

With this newly-fueled-fire, I'm going to focus on finally getting my reel together. I just need to put all my commercials on one reel and my commercial reel will be set. And then I need to assemble clips from all the work I've done this year so far to make my theatrical reel happen. The short film I shot a few months back, True Love, is having its first screening tomorrow night so I'm hoping to get my footage from that soon. The Every Other Wednesday webisodes I guest starred in are scheduled to be edited and complete by the end of the week. And I'm going to see about getting the footage from my co-star role on the pilot TIPS. Can't wait to see how these all came together! And I can't wait to finally have my reel done!

And...new headshots are in order. I am researching photographers today and hoping to set up something soon. It is time for a fresh look and a fresh start.

Running down a dream

Sorry I've been radio-silent....it's been a very busy few days. Once things have settled down, we'll play catch-up. In the meantime, I'm feeling very blessed, very loved and very hopeful about what is on the horizon. Keep sending your positive vibes my way - they mean the world and make a difference.

(PS - the title of this post is a nod to the Tom Petty song that keeps playing on my ipod during my runs. Even though my playlist is on shuffle, it always seems to come on just when I need it most..."there's something good waitin' down this road, I'm pickin' up whatever's mine...")