So I write

Look and you will find it - what is unsought will go undetected.
- Sophocles

On Friday afternoon I printed out the second draft of my screenplay.  I'm going to let it rest for a moment. Although I'm already thinking of ways to fix/tweak/clarify/heighten.  Having the second draft done is a big step but I still feel like there is something missing and I'm hoping that by stepping away for a moment, I can find that piece.  In the meantime, the goal this week is to focus on other projects and lose my tunnel vision.  I want to sit and brainstorm ideas for short films.  I want to paint.  There are fitness classes I'm going to and I'm going to keep up with my running everyday.  I have a casting workshop tomorrow night and plans to go bowling with my Improv class buddies.  I envy people that can sit down and write for hours at a time.  To write screenplay after screenplay until they are piled up, just waiting to be produced.  But I don't write because it's my passion.  I write to feed my passion.  I write so I can act.  I write to provide opportunities; to be an active participant in this career.  I could just wait for the phone to ring...and sometimes I do.  But there is only so much that I can control.  When I was cast in "True Love," the writer/director later admitted that when he saw my headshot come across his submissions, I was what he had pictured in his head when he wrote the part.  That, my friends, is extremely rare when you are not a "name" actor.  That was luck, a fluke, a lovely piece of coincidence.  And that doesn't happen often.  I can't control when that sort of providence happens...unless I'm the one writing the parts.